Wednesday, October 1, 2008

Inability to blog

You may have noticed that I haven't updated you on our adoption or shared any cutsie pictures of my precious baby boy. There is a reason. I have resigned from blog stalking, "FBI" watching, sharing, catching up, and anything to do with timelines, time tables, courtdates, etc. I become physically ill at the thought of court being open and our file being out in Never Never Land. My daughter's room is finished, her picture is plastered on every wall of the house, my heart is prepared and we are ready for her arrival. I NEVER wanted to feel this feeling again. My heart racing, pounding, the anticipation of waiting on a phone call and a date that she will officially become ours. I set out to focus on Ian and not think so much about the wait. But Monday, the switch flipped and my ability to wait patiently diminished. So long voice of reason...hello full on panic mode. Pray it ends...soon.

14 comments:

Sam said...

I have been checking up on you. Hope that you are doing ok! hang in there...not much longer and the wait will be worth it (ya ya idle words i know...)

Jennifer said...

I hope that this torture will soon be only a distant memory and it will be hard to remember life before your two children! I can't wait to see your first family picture!
Miss you tons!

Jocelyn said...

I am getting anxious just reading this blog...sorry you are having these feelings again:-( Hoping that you hear something VERY soon.

Amy B. said...

I hope you hear something very soon! Did you get my email that I wrote in reply to yours? I am thankful to have someone like you in this life journey...someone that can relate so closely to our situation.

Amy

Dan, Misty & Ashar said...

It has to end soon! Even though I'm sure it feels like forever. Here's hoping she's home in that beautiful room and your awesome loving arms soon!

Renee said...

Hang in there my sweet friend, I was just about to email you to tell you I was sick of seeing the Bakers and needed some new info. Call me if you need to vent.
Renee

Nicholas said...

Thinking of you and praying.

Kristy -Mom To 9 Blessings said...

Oh my goddness, I have SOOOO been there! HANG IN THERE! You have a beautiful, sweet, precious girl that my Grace Bizuayehu misses terribly waiting for you! She needs a sane Mama! :-) My Grace B was crying for her Ethiopian friends yesterday so I showed her slide shows on my computer of all of her faraway friends! I silently cried with her! So know that your sweet girl is happy and well loved until she makes it to her forever family! Her smaile can light up an entire room! Oh, and Grace B prays for her friends in ET every night by name, that they get their forever families!
Blessings,
Kristy

~Laura~ said...

thinking of you and praying for you. ((hugs))

Jim and Debbie said...

I can only imagine how difficult this wait has been for you since you first saw your daughter back in December. Praying you are able to bring her home very soon. She's blessed to be a part of your family. May God give you His perfect peace as you wait just a little bit longer. Hang in there.

coffeemom said...

I get it. I'm sorry. Hang in there. It's gonna happen. You know, there is a chance I might have pics of her. If you send me her info/pic by email, I will scan through mine. We were at the foster homes in May, even teh older kids foster home of gladney's. Let me know and well, I'm thinking of you! Love M
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emily said...

I can't wait to hear that she is yours!! It should be really, really soon. :)

Shelly Roberts said...

Oh Lindsey .... I am so sorry this wait just lingers on for you. It's a long and winding road as you follow the Lord's leading in welcoming these precious children into your family. He is gonna see you through til it's all complete. Will be praying fervently for you ... that He would just carry you on all the way through til you're finally RE-united with your precious daughter! :) Much love, Shelly

Lori S said...

God bless you in this journey that you have chosed to make, AGAIN!!
I hope to meet you or your daughter when we travel to get our two, ages 7and 3 years!