Wednesday, January 30, 2008

Back to work=(

I haven't posted in a while because I knew the back to work post had to come=( Last week I started back to work and left Ian for the very first time since he entered my life=( Needless to say it was a sad day in our house. Cortney had already gone back to work but the extra time off for me was a killer. I am sure that I needed him more than he could ever need me but just to think that he may wonder if I was coming back was more than I could stand. My first day back was an 8a-8p day and then the next was the same. I guess I called my dad (the wonderful sitter) every 2 hours and had my sister calling too! My sister has had sick kidos so she is on the alternate list for baby sitting. Cortney got home at 4 and took over and it was comforting to me to know that Ian had at least one of his parents even if it wasn't me. When I got home he seemed happy to see me...maybe not the reaction I was hoping for but I got a smile and a kiss! He reached for me but when I got him reached for a toy...broke my heart. Oh well, we made it through that day and that week. This week I am working just a few days and will try to maintain that schedule for as long as possible. I knew in the beginning that I am a working mom and it would have to be this way. But, I also never knew how much I would love my little baby! Tomorrow we are having his pictures made. I can't wait to get all of these empty frames filled up with that beautiful smile. He is growing so much and amazing me with how smart he is! He screams Da-da-da all day long! I won't lie...I am very jealous that we haven't had just one little ma ma. He is getting so strong. Over the past 6 weeks he has gotten so much stronger. We still don't have any teeth to report however, he is still chewing on everything he can get his hands on!!



So many families are getting ready to travel in the coming days to get their little ones. I am so excited that Jocelyn and the Breedloves will be in transit to Pacey and Nathan very soon!











7 comments:

Nicholas said...

You guys will settle into a routine - it does stink though that we have to work for a living eh'!

He is just getting soo big and beautiful!

Anonymous said...

I hope it makes you feel better to know that Sophie also says Dadadada and no mama yet. In fact, I am pretty sure her first real words (rather than sounds - which is what I'm attributing the dada to) were no, no, no (with full-on finger wave) and uh (as in the first half of uh-oh when she drops something). But I KNOW she loves us all, so the names will come. Right now we have to settle for the hugs and kisses :) Hang in there. I think I was sick to my stomach the entire first day I was at work after having Matthew. It does get better, and I honestly think it makes the time you do get to spend with him that much better. The pictures are great - he is so handsome!!

Natalie Fournet said...

He is soooo cute!!! I know it is hard to leave him now, it was so hard for me to do the same at the beginning. It does get easier...hang in there. Natalie

Jocelyn said...

Thanks for the shout out!! Ian is so adorable:-)

graceling said...

He is too cute!

Being a working mom is the hardest thing I have ever done. Heartbreaking at first, but a part of life sometimes.

I'll pray for ya!

Rachel said...

He is beautiful! Going back to work is difficult and you never again feel the same about leaving him...but thankfully you know what you are coming home to and that makes the day more bearable!

Drew Carey Show said...

I'm on week two of being back to work also, and it is getting a little easier. When I walk in the door at night, Zoe smiles and squeels at me and then promptly continues playing with her nanny -- as though I was just a temporary diversion. My pediatrician even comforted me that Zoe does indeed know that I'm her mom =). And I still get to wake her up in the morning, put her to bed and comfort her throughout the night. That's what moms do, right? They're there when it matters most. So hang in there! The balance will come.